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I stand, helmet on the ground, tired, exhausted, I've been losing the daily battles. All my armor is on the ground, I'm battered, bruised, and my weapons seem useless. I've fought and been victorious before, why am I so helpless to this monster now? No matter what I do, the monster within seems to destroy me. Some Knight I am.. I can't even kill a dragon within. The dragon within is slowly destroying my walk.. I can't help others, I can't love, I have to feed the dragon. I've tried starving it, and it only returns with a stronger appetite and I can do nothing to stop him.. or so it seems. Where was my victories? my confidence, I've beaten this dragon before. Once again I pick up my armor, put it on, sharpen my sword and jump into the fray. I've forgotten to release my shroud of guilt and self loathing though, soon the dragon has me at his mercy. I stumble seeking help from everyone but those willing to help. Finally I cry out, to the One who has given me my previous victory.. God I don't want to be the monster I am, I don't want to be under this Dragon, and slowly I gain my strength, Now's the time.. Do I get help from other dragon slayers? Or do I try to beat it on my own? I seek out aid, I find the right help, and I fight back to back. Is the dragon dead? No.. this dragon is more than mere flesh and blood, but I am no longer flat on my back...

Still putting my armor on and sharpening my sword..